There seem to be two people in my head. Probably many more. But let's just focus on these.
The first one wants to clear out everything that doesn't serve the highest good. Sit down. Think clearly. Be organised. Get on with it from a high state.
This is the part of me that produces systems. He has journals and plans. He likes everything nicely organised. He sets the alarm for 3:30 a.m., tidies the house, wants to connect with God and wants to make a bigger difference.
The other person seems to be interested in getting things.
He wants to research sumac powder for that special taste he remembers from when he was younger, to put on his toast. He wants to know about the best tungsten spheres. He wants to download music. He is interested in what is going on in the news. On YouTube. Just to check quickly.
He likes the idea of entertainment. He feels he damn well deserves some after all this hard work.
He is quite obsessive. Clouded. He does not really think clearly or have a plan.